Tuesday, 16 June 2015

Something outside of me, pushing down and squashing my spirit.

Feeling bloody awful this morning.  I can't really say why.  There have been a few frustrations but generally everything has been good.  I can only really put it down to the illness,   It often feels like something outside of me, pushing down and squashing my spirit.  I know its an illness but at the moment I wish it would just f***off and leave me alone.

I have not had the appointment date to see the specialist yet.  I am holding onto that, possibly a bit too much, but the psychiatric nurse did seem confident that something could be done to stabilise my mood.  I must also get back to mindfulness, the nurse ensured me that it is effective against my type of depression.

So I am going to finish this and then follow the mindfulness app I have on my phone, sleep and then force myself out on my bike.  Hopefully this will restore some sense of well being.

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