I just don't seem to be able to break this low feeling. It isn't anywhere near the rock bottom I was a few weeks ago but it isn't a nice place to be.   Its a beautiful day, just waiting to be enjoyed and I don't have the energy or desire.    It feels that I may never get better and this will be as good as it gets.  I really hope not because it isn't much fun and is a drain on me and everyone around me, especially my family.

My wife has gone to help some friends of ours as their boy has broken his arm and is in hospital. A real set back for him but I am sure he will bounce back very quickly as he has overcome worse problems before this.  He is a real star and it is a privilege to be part of that family's life.