I am feeling somewhat better today even though I didn't really sleep very well last night.  The medication seems to be improving my mood but affecting my sleep patterns.  Hopefully the sleep will settle down because the mood improvements are really giving me some optimism.  Little steps are important here because I am scared of going back to where I was at the weekend. I remain vulnerable.

I see some of my friends have been doing some very long bike rides getting ready for the Nello, 100 mile ride at the end of June.  It makes me feel that I need to some longer rides so that I have any chance of keeping up with them on the day.  Trouble is I am putting on weight, partly due to the fact that I have been doing a lot of weight training recently, partly due to the medication but mainly because I keep eating chocolate. I should be OK on the flat, because I am quite fit, but it will be difficult dragging my bulk up all of the hills.