Yesterday I thought I couldn't feel any worse, but today I do, much worse. This is just such a such a horrid illness it is taking everything I am and destroying it.

When I started to write this blog I thought I should write it no matter how I felt, as it would be a good record for the future but today I am not sure.  I guess I am going to write and put it online more as cry for help more than anything.  It is destroying me and  even worse it is taking my family relationships with it.