It has been a really difficult couple of days.  I have had a series of knocks that have left me feeling rock bottom.  I now have started to doubt everything about myself.  The foundations on which I build my life seem shaky at the moment.   I really don't know where to go from here and am now really scared of the future.

I saw my Doctor yesterday and he was his usual fantastic self.  He has referred me to a psychiatrist because I am not making the improvements he would have hoped.  I just hope they can work some sort of miracle because surely life can be better than this.