Life sure has its ups and downs. I haven't yet left the house today and have gone through a wide spectrum of emotions. I woke up feeling OK, thought about about what to do for the day and found myself feeling hopeless. This is because I don't feel I have anything really exciting to look forward to in the near future. This I find very difficult and it compounds my feeling of having no idea what to do next.
My wife has been brilliant but my constant bad mood and moaning is starting to get to her now. The problem we have is that she is really a home bird and doesn't have to many ambitions to travel, whereas I do. She has said I can do what I want, when I want, but I guess I have been to scared to take her up on that. So I think I am going to go to France at half term.
A few years ago my youngest step son went on a French exchange and we have kept in touch with his family since. They have been asking when we are going to go to France, so I have asked them if I could see them during that time. If it all works out, I will get the ferry to Cherbourg on Monday, cycle the 150 miles to their home town over the week, (hopefully via the Bayeux tapestry) and then see them on the weekend, before I come back on the Sunday. This has made my mood much better. I have cycled in France before and had a great time, but this time I am going to take an airbed as it is much more comfy than a carry mat.
So since I have started writing this I have had a Facebook chat with our French friends and it looks as though they are OK to have me for the day and night over half-term. This has given me a real lift. So now to book the ferries.
1 comment:
Blog? Tweeting? Bloody hell Mr C I can't work all this technology! I have now tried twice to leave a comment on your blog but keep losing it, too technical for me!!? So gonna write it here!
Bon voyage Mr C! That's amazing! I have never suffered from depression and your blog is giving a real insight into the condition, thank you. You are a real inspiration, opening your heart and soul to all, along your journey! I'm sure I speak for many when I say that we are walking alongside you on your journey. If there is anything that we can do, please ask. I won't come singing with you ask I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy, and I'm no cyclist, too painful, but if there is anything that I can do please ask.
Before I sign off, saw this and thought of you:
A neutron walks into the pub and says "how much for a pint?" The bartender looks over and replies "to you, no charge!" Ha, ha.
Take care Mr C. E x
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